Pros and Cons

Pros
- We got along so well
- He was a kind person
- He would help fix my car
- I am pregnant with his child
- We both love adventures
- He is a very clean person
- cuddling him feels nice
- Sex used to be good
- Comfortable with my body around him
- Generally comfortable with him.
- I truely loved him, with all my heart
- I was genuinely happy with him
- He is respectful
- He hasn't slept with many girls which I liked
- Spends a lot of time with me
- fills up my car & cleans car for me
- I love his family
- Doesn't drink/smoke etc
- Normally would do what I ask him to do when I need help with something etc.

Cons
- He was a financial strain - always quitting jobs, spending savings. I was the one usually paying for everything and saving for our future.
- Quits everything he starts - his apprenticeship, jobs, studies. Blames it on anxiety and then does nothing about it.
- Never initiates sex, barely ever wants to have sex with me and when he does it is always on a Sunday and it's boring. I have a higher sex drive then him.
- Stopped telling me that I am beautiful
- Abandons me and his baby at 30 weeks pregnant.
- Sick of asking for sex and getting rejected all the time.
- Would rather watch TV then talk to me.
- Constantly harassing me to borrow money to buy a car
- Telling me to return to work quickly after baby is born so that he can get his car...
- Not even doing the right thing by me and my baby and paying me back for my furniture
- Never kisses me, holds hands or show affection first. I always have to initiate.
- Wastes money on take-away because he is so fussy with food
- So fussy with food! I find it embarrassing when he tries to avoid eating most things at family functions
- Always wants to go to the same restaurants and eat the same food.
- Emotionally cheated on me with a 31 year old woman WHO HAS MET ME AND KNEW I WAS PREGNANT WITH HIS BABY! Fucking home wrecker.
- Didn't want to or like taking photos with me often.
- Has no drive or ambition to be successful - he just wants an easy job that will pay well.
- He left so easily after one fight & didn't even bother trying to work on our relationship, not even for the sake of our family.
- Treating me like shit after our fight, calling me pathetic etc.

Second heartbreak.

well here I am back again 4 years later. Since the last time I blogged I got into a relationship with a man named Scott. I loved him with all my heart and soul. We got engaged and I thought he was going to be my forever. We moved to Melbourne and I got pregnant. We were excited for the baby and I was so happy to start a family with him. When I was 29 weeks pregnant we had a fight. Our first huge fight. He broke up with me. I tried to give him space and hope that he would change his mind and that he was just scared. 2 weeks of space and the decision to break up is his final decision. I tried begging and pleading to work on our relationship and he didn’t want to.

I am absolutely devastated. I feel like I can’t breathe, and because I’m pregnant I feel like I’m trapped. I cannot even comprehend what is happening. I don’t even understand why it is happening.

I am also having horrible feelings towards my baby. I don’t like him anymore, I don’t want to. I even looked up foods to eat that could harm him. I feel like a terrible person.